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finallehhh, the hols are here! :D and that only means, i'm closer to day when i can get on the plane and just leave Malaysia for a period of time. and only means, trials are coming and i'm totally not ready for a single thing. for this term i barely studied and yet i went in clueless and lost. how i wished mid-term didn't exists. i'm a total screwed up mess, as a student all i'm supposed to do is just study, study and be a good student. yet, i'm none of the above, i act as if i know everything or anything while in reality all i care or know about won't help me during the future, and thinking about things that will never happen. Is this how a teenager lives? why is that people who are pretty, popular, sociable, clever, and just perfect. how can they manage so many things? when i can barely do or am none. And i remember the face Ms Yeow gave Shawn when he was performing on stage, when am i gonna get that from someone? just because of my timid-ness and my lack of courage i can't do the things i want or dream of. i don't know but one thing i want to show people is my singing, i want people's comments. cause if no one comments, i will never know if i'm good at it or not and  that's kind of my dream at the moment. and sometimes, i don't even know why i'm so shy. is it because i'm afraid of what people may think if i be myself to people other than my friends. when am i gonna have the courage to do what i want to do? even if i do sound bad, at least i tried right? but now i barely tried yet i'm already thinking about the negative side.

so at the moment my dream is to sing infront of people. 

"You never know what you can do until you try."

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