saddest post ever.

hello lovely people who will be reading this? hmmm, i don't think anyone would innit? but i'm so posting for my purpose so.. i'll start! :D

so if my friends are reading this, the real reason why i didn't go for the sleepover to spend jellybean's last few days with us (before officially going to a new school) is; well, i know i was being selfish and stuff for not going, but with me not showing up will be the same right? playing with their ukulele and stuff, and i'll be there just swiping my phone hoping someone would be generous enough to spend their time with me or maybe they want to fucking shoot a fucking video and i'll be taking guard with how it goes. WELL I'M SORRY BUT I DIDN'T COME HERE TO HELP YOU FUCKING SHOOT A MV BUT ALL I WANT IS TO SPEND jelly'S LAST DAYS WITH US. thank you. i don't know, maybe this didn't happened, but i'm sure it was like this. cause spending out last time with each other with ukuleles is so much fun! oh, jolly!
the second reason, i'm disappointed in everyone. i'm done with everyone leaving me out in everything and picking up every sorry thrown at me. I HAD ENOUGH. yesterday was actually the first time i'd rather spend my time in the library with other librarians then being with them. to be honest, candy may drive me up the world at times everytime, but i'm really grateful to have her as my friend. sometimes. people sometimes just don't understand my hatred with her.
with everyone being sad and all that our group is splitting, i don't know yeah i'm sad but sometimes i wished i was the one leaving them. just want a new start before it's too late ya know? but with what's going on in my household, i'll just have to leave it aside.

and back with the sleepover thing, you guess can at least be a bit what's the word? right, considerate to tell me what's happening, but really not a sound from whatsapp. i bet you guys must be glad i'm not there.

wish: can i have better friends please. and a male best friend.

of course i'm grateful with what i have now since they don't make me feel entirely lonely infront of people. but that's not what i really want.... sometimes i too don't get myself, why am i still fucking complaining.

and next is, i don't get jellybean whenever i want to tell her something she'll pratically shut me off and the worst thing is she doesn't notice what she has done!

example, me: JELLYBEAN! I WANNNNNNAA TELL YOU SOMETHING
jellybean: oh. wait........... i'm doing the dishes
me: oh okay. i'll doing something else while waiting for you to finsih
jellybean: last message 3124 hours ago.
WTF, do you take that long to wash your dishes ?
okay fine, maybe you think this is quite a useless topic and you're thinking i could've easily just remind her and stuff but it's like she doesn't care, so to me what's the point of me reminding her that i was supposed to tell her, i'm done.

and grapefruit saying that she treats me best and whatever ;  bullcrap. i'm sorry she treats everyone the same, which is good to the others, but hello. i thought, ah never mind. i'm never anyone's first.

the only time i felt loved from Min Yuan's was when she suggested to buy a friendship necklace. hah, how nice..

does anyone even think of me for a minute, i don't even want to start with grapefruit and lemon as it's just a waste of time. i'm still waiting, you're very welcome. how long do i even need to fucking wait for 2 of my present that you guys even supposedly owe me, this again isn't a big matter. but, isn't this supposed to be like a symbol that you guys are my friends.

lemon, i said on the top i didn't wanna say much about you. but, i have to release this. can you please be less irritating. please, you irritate the shit out of me. and with everyone telling me we are the 4 best friends just accept her with how she is, well i'm sorry. i'm tired of putting everything behind and acting as nothing has ever happened, tbh with you not being my friend is like an arrow being taken out from my heart. the feeling of relieve.

i'm done.

name changed for the purpose of the author and her "friends". 

what a troll.

꿈.

finallehhh, the hols are here! :D and that only means, i'm closer to day when i can get on the plane and just leave Malaysia for a period of time. and only means, trials are coming and i'm totally not ready for a single thing. for this term i barely studied and yet i went in clueless and lost. how i wished mid-term didn't exists. i'm a total screwed up mess, as a student all i'm supposed to do is just study, study and be a good student. yet, i'm none of the above, i act as if i know everything or anything while in reality all i care or know about won't help me during the future, and thinking about things that will never happen. Is this how a teenager lives? why is that people who are pretty, popular, sociable, clever, and just perfect. how can they manage so many things? when i can barely do or am none. And i remember the face Ms Yeow gave Shawn when he was performing on stage, when am i gonna get that from someone? just because of my timid-ness and my lack of courage i can't do the things i want or dream of. i don't know but one thing i want to show people is my singing, i want people's comments. cause if no one comments, i will never know if i'm good at it or not and  that's kind of my dream at the moment. and sometimes, i don't even know why i'm so shy. is it because i'm afraid of what people may think if i be myself to people other than my friends. when am i gonna have the courage to do what i want to do? even if i do sound bad, at least i tried right? but now i barely tried yet i'm already thinking about the negative side.

so at the moment my dream is to sing infront of people. 

"You never know what you can do until you try."

도전하기 전까지는 네가 무엇을 할 수 있는지 절대 알 수 없다.

news flash!

i fell in love with 5 dorks aka B1A4. well, i liked them before but now the hole is deeper. woots~

Post Election Post.

woot! so guess who is running our government for another 6 years? YEAP, you got it gurl-friend~
 Barisan Nasional~! :D woohoooooo! yeahahhhh! another 6 blessing years to come~! *sense my sarcasm?*

well, whatever. win or loose, we still hate you. whatever.

fuckin'asshole. gheeiiii.

bigbangshinki. lol

yes, you go Kyuhyun!

 NO. STOP IT.
STOP.

 hwallalalalala~ yoo chun the smirking god~ !

 :3

"If one of the members leaves the team ,
i will not stay in TVXQ anymore."
-Kim Junsu

AND THE TEARS STREAM DOWN MY FACEE! :( 

oh my beautiful snowflake :(


  ><
 Junsu's dongbangshinki era

to a more happy section!~

AHH, i find the fanarts super adorbsss! :D




 fuck fuck fuckkkk, look at neck veins.. omg

school ; cunts.

i hate school, let me repeat. -commercial break- i've yet to receive my album :( ohhh, i'm so afraid it's a scam! :( -back to story- i don't know, i feel like i'm distanced with all my friends.. most important Min Yuan, like... (i don't know how to put this) but it seems like whatever secret she tells i may be the last one, or she will just leave me out.. i am concerned.. but ya know, i try to not put it at heart... with Faye Venn, let's just say, i'm not close or never will be. Jing Ru, i don't know.. yeah i talk to her, well cause we're in the same class and all...... and we regularly have arguments... like everyday..... so it's kinda on off... i think i may be closer to her than i with Min Yuan. but i feel that Jing Ru doesn't like me? anyways, with Jocelyn yeah, we're good together and whatsoever, but whenever i tell her something or about a person she'll be so blur! goshhhh! she needs to improve on her stalking skills! hohohoh! other than that, because of K-Pop Julie and I are quite close? in a good way, i guess? yay! :D and i can't keep up with damn school, i barely know what teachers are teaching yet i don't want to do anything about it. i suck.
 
fucking cunt.
:(

 sexy yet derp. i likez

 ~love is in the air~

~dead~



 still a fucking cunt.


CUNT! 
 one question, what is Jae wearing? poncho??

 gheiiii!


i guess i'll end here! ~ :D


ps. pictures aren't mine, and whatever i said wasn't meant to harm them or whatsoever you would understand if you were a fan~ :D

Xiaaa~

remember when i said my next purchase will be Xia's - Tarantallegra? guess what??? i'm finally getting it~ :D yayyy! :D hope it comes, and it's not a damn scam or whatsoever ! :D

Happy Birthday My little smiling angel :)

so, Daesung ahh! ( i'm not supposed to call you that, but i love you.) Happy Birthday oppa, this is my first year celebrating your birthday, but i'm sure it won't be my last! :D

Anyways, Daesung was the one that always cheers me up when i'm down, his smile brightens up my day, i just love everything about him, that's mainly why he is my ultimate bias :) i don't know, everything about Daesung is perfect, perfect, perfect. damn, i love his bod anyways, here are some pictures :)

 :') a-d-o-r-a-b-l-e !

 oh hay dair~
 my girl group dancing babe!

 >.<!!!

 STAPPPPHH!
 imagine he saw T.O.P naked and this would probably be his reaction.

 no one can rock those funky sunglasses except you bby
 beautiful.


 born to entertain, born to sing.




 sigh, if only i get to see this flawless human being every morning!

one thing about Dae is that, he acts like a country bimp(?) and he actually ain't from the countryside. my bby bumpkin






 wooooop!





last thing before i end this post, HAPPY BITHDAY DAESUNG OPPA~ :D I SARANGHAE YOU! FIGHTING~ ( and one day i will get your album, one day!)


pics aren't mine, CREDIT TO THE OWNER.

a little about me.

that's it.

 like always, i hate you Brady.

JB, Jonas Brothers.

listen to this preview and tell me you don't like it. cause if you do, i will personally give you a punch :)

MOTHERRRR, THIS SONG PREVIEW IS DA BOMB. OMG, DID YOU HEAR NICK'S PART. OMG, SOUNDS SO GOOD~! the name "Pom Poms" may be a bit tacky(?) but holyyyy the preview is soo good! can't wait for the full song and album~! :D GO JONAS BROTHERS!

Hey sexy lady~

hi hi fellow people.. :D how are you guys doing today? me? oh, i'm fine ;) So, if you're wondering why i don't really post about my friend problems anymore cause, i threw the rotten apple away? seems like it, but ever since you know how is gone, yea i must admit missing the person is a must since we shared so many things together, i know i will never forget but i could move on. yea?
 anyways, enough of the sad sad things that happened in my life, and i shall share with you my happiness.. and that is K-POP. HUAAHUAHAUHAUHAUHA. better leave before i go cray cray. teehee.

I've been really into B1A4, which is badddd. cause i'm not done with fangirling over BB, JYJ & TVXQ....... i will never be done.  but still, their songs are really catchy.. i've only listen to two songs oops. anyways, i must say CNU is super duper delicious~ :P
 yea, usually guys with long hair ain't really my type, sorry Chunnie but when you had the fugly long hair i didn't really "digged" it... tho, i've not rights since i liked you after the hair cut.. soooo, back to the story... doesn't he look cute ><? :D hehe, anyways check them out~!

not bad huh? :-P B1A4 HWAITING~! 

WELL, I GUESS THAT'S IT. TEEHHEEEEE~! SARANGHAE EVERYBODEHHHHHH~!