Hello, i've returned.

Hello hello, so it has been weeks, months since i've last blogged, and i'm finally back.... exams are just around the corner and i'm here using the comp, whoop whoop. 2014 new year, new beginnings. Still can't believe it i'm in high school already, i still remembered my first day at bu3 as a form 1, just lost.... 3 years had peacefully passed and i'm still here! :) #thankful

In the past few years, i've sure matured in lots of ways and i've learnt how to i don't know not be so childish. I guess this is what puberty does to you, it changes you. About my appearances, i've most definitely changed, still having problems with my weight and height. I don't think i'm growing taller but i'm sure that i'm growing wider and wider each year, and i don't want that. I guess, during lent period i can sacrifice eating loads and deffo cursing. I've cursed to much at a young age i've ought to change.

About my life, long three of my bestfriends made new ones of course so i'm thankful. I wanna tell you a secret about me, i think i'm a magician. Why you ask? I had a bestfriend named Min Yuan and now she's all a sudden a stranger to me. I've nothing to say, i don't know if it's me that is not doing anything or her or maybe both. I feel like whatever she does has nothing in common with me anymore. We're just friends, she gets along with anyone and everyone except for me, her once called best friend forever, and i understand that she's busy with school work and stuff since she's in international school, but i didn't know our friendship would only last for 3 years, okay less than 3 years. About Amanda and Faye still the same school we say hi to each others and stuff, but i feel like they don't like hanging with me. I'm sorry, but i prefer staying low key whereas both of them love being in big groups, whenever i've a problem they would always want me to tell them my problems, and when i do they'll tell me stuff to make me feel guilty or they'll listen and just won't care afterwards. I made a conclusion, and i don't need them. I've my new ones. Even though i may dislike Jocelyn's attitude, i still appreciate her for being there for me.

About my love life, hah still single not that i'm complaining, it's better to wait for the right one now then regretting about it. But i've been sad this whole week all because of one person, name shall be kept private even though i'm sure no one reads this blog let's call him Bill... yeah Bill. So exactly last week my school had a musical and Bill wasn't the lead but a supporting role, still i went to support him. I did, just because of him but whatever i enjoyed the play even if it wasn't for him, wasn't so sure at first but it turned out great. Anyways back to the point, since he is my senior librarian and my crush i finally thought of it and said to myself since it's Bill's last year, why not talk to him wish him good luck and stuff, so i took all my guts just to wish him good luck and i even congratulated him and guess what? a fruitless respond, as if he doesn't know me at all, he read the message but didn't reply. How am i supposed to feel? Liked him since i joined the library as a probate two years later finally had the guts to facebook message him, nothing, nothing at all. I really thought he would've replied since we're acquaintances i guess i couldn't get my hope too high, no i can't unsent the message or turn back time, i feel so humiliated. Thanks Bill, i'll try to forget you and if i can't i'll just have to wait for you to leave the school so i can spend my last year being carefree and i won't need to think about anything so that i can ace my SPM.